jus..

I wanna take a shot..
drown my sorrows away..
tommorows..wont stay..
so why should i...

why is it do i have to endur
but not be adored...
floored by the reaction..
cant get no saticaftion..
from anywhere..
nothing ever seems like..
like..
too many battle wounds..
trying to stay afoot..
but im limping in this world..
tryin to be seen....
but lost in this shadow...
underdstanding...
now i feel hallow..
dont know what to follow..
who to follow..
unable to swallow..
dehydrated...
unsulterated..
im jadded...
dont know what to let in..
feeling like going inside the
womb to beginnin again..
but what would be the diffrence when we are all born into sin..

...

Lost in passion..
Stuck in reaction..
Trapped..
Into something unknown..
Beyond belief.
But I dont dis...
I miss..
Confused about this..
Now which..
Way to that bliss..
That fills my soul...
Not cold..
Untold because..
Now is not right..
Inside I fight...
Trying to find the light..
Of love..
Not just bright..
More a fluorescent color..
Blinding you..
Moments stolen..
Heart controlin..
Mind there obliviously..
Frivolously...
Another part of me..
Unknow to most ..
Rears its head..
Demanding...
Not understanding..
Standing..
Sittiing
Waiting..
Deabating...
My heart seems to be
Procreating..
No longer to procrastinate..
Real loves waiting..
But for now I will be hesitating

suffocating..

Breathing..
Trying..
To survive off this
oxygen..
But deep within..
Feels
Like im suffocating..
Its creating a thirst..
Only one can satisfy..
My inner thigh..
Is calling..
Urnin..
from the inside.
Come inside
Here resides..
A slip and slide..
Take a ride..
Two or three..
Ill ride u to the highest peek..
Don't be meek...
The ride goes deep...
deep
deep
deeper
until u hear me speak
even then..
the ride won't end...
get back on lets began again..